lmb_words_poetry_the other side

i looked for it
for all my life
now it came to me
in a moment of truth
a whisper told me
not to run away
an accident made me
stay right there
and listen
no action
not a word
not a feeling
just recieving
just perception
and i pushed it
far from me
i stopped caring
for a second
which became a minute
and a day
stopped answering
stopped listening
stopped feeling
this shore is lost
new ones waiting
deepest cruelty
just what i need